Being a mom is tough on the heart. I've been getting glimpses of what our Heavenly Father's love for us must be like. I don't think I will ever completely comprehend it but I've seen some glimpses.
Today we had to take Benjamin to the Dr. to get his PKU and I prayed before leaving that I would be able to be strong. I might have been strong in some way but listening to my sweet baby boy cry at the top of his lungs as they poked his foot and squeezed the blood out my heart just swelled. I wished I could endure it for him. I wished that I could take it all away. I know it's for the best and that he had to have the test but it broke my heart to watch him in pain. My eyes burned and I tried to breathe the impending tears away but I couldn't. The tears just started to flow down. As soon as I could I had Benjamin in my arms trying to comfort and calm him down. Jared had his arm around me to try and comfort me too.
Benjamin is just so adorable. We love watching him smile and looking around. We really love watching him sleep and cuddling with him.